becky01

ive been in school for a week.
i absolutely love it, overwhelming at times, but when isnt new stuff like that.



other stuff in my life are good.
i dont see my friends too much, but when i get the chance too its usually a good time.
i think this new schedule that i have makes me not take advantage of the time i have with my friends.

cat left and its absolutely weird without her being here. and i miss her.



i cant wait to see what the next few months have in store for me.....

summers gone.
i felt like i havent really done anything.

tomorrows my last night of freedom.
then my lifes being taken away by school,
im nervous....

school starts in a week.
im excited/nervous, i just hope i do well.









im pretty stupid, i think to myself why do i continue cause its pointless.
but then its kind of hard to resist.





someone good just come in to my life? thanks.

confused?
yea i guess you can call it that.

new hampshire was good, met some new people.
i think this trip gave ange and i a chance to be how we used to be.

i want to go back, and be away from north haven. [[forever]]

my birthday is in 15 minutes. ill be 19. yay me.


im at the time in my life where im trying to get out of this immature high school stage but i feel stuck in it cause im constantly surrounded by fighting, and its hard to stay out of.


saturday im going up to boston to see my brother which should be a good time, i miss him.
and sunday ange and i are going up to new hampshire agian. exciting i know.

someone stole my wallet at work.
all you DQ employees suck.

i mean honestly just take the money cause most likely ill be cancelling all my cards you dumb fuck.














i need to get away.

graduate..finally? yup i did it, now what?
summer is nothing special as of yet. except i got to see my friend chris up in new hampshire for a whole week which was pretty awesome. ive missed him, im glad i got to see him.

umm some news, i got my nose pierced while i was up there.

so im unhappy with myself. ive gotten into things that i shouldnt have and ive done things that werent the smartest ideas, ive grown apart from my family, and i dont like it. ive become the person that i used to hate, and im going to try to change that.

summer seems like it just started, but in a few weeks i start school and some of my friends are going away. im scared starting a new life, yet at the same time im just as excited to see how things turn out for me.




last thought before i go...

its hard to think that you've found the person that makes you happy, and they don't know and its too hard to say something.